I realized that even when no one wanted the paintings I made of my son, I couldn’t stop painting him — because sometimes what matters most is making the work you care about first. This interview reminded me how much I still want to explore: experimenting with gold leaf again, standing back from the painting, trying larger work, and deepening my study of composition. I’m also learning to quiet the selling mindset and focus more on refining my skills — and to be more empathetic toward the artists I interview, because now I know how vulnerable it feels.

That expression on his face—that puzzled, dreamy look—was the same one I saw in the photo, the same one I saw when the other child fell. In that moment, I knew: this painting had to be about him. About us. Because we’re not just growing side by side. We’re growing together.

For me, that shift happened in 2023 when I committed to painting my son every day for 31 days, leading up to his third birthday. By the time the month ended, painting had become a daily ritual. Now, if I don’t paint—even just a little—it feels off, like something is missing. That’s the habit you want to build. Painting as a natural part of your life.

In this heartfelt episode, I reflect on my emotional journey back to Japan to say my final farewell to my grand aunt. The decision to fly back to Japan or not was a struggle for me since it meant taking my 3 year old with me, having to pause everything and financially. But there was few key things that happened that made me make a decision. 

In this episode, I explore the moments when parents open up their worlds to their children, sharing not just spaces and tasks, but meaningful parts of their identities. Through three stories—an artist inviting her children to lay a single brushstroke on a magazine cover, a pilot who secretly brings his child into the cockpit, and my own experiences of being in my mother’s workspace and now with my son in mine—we’ll reflect on why so many parents naturally want their children to feel connected to their work. Is it just about showing them what we do, or is there a deeper purpose, a desire for belonging, pride, and shared legacy? Join me as I unravel these intimate moments and the universal drive to invite our children into our worlds.

In this episode, I’m opening up and sharing more about who I am, my artistic journey, and why I decided to start this podcast. From my background in Japan, Germany, and now Washington, I reflect on how these places shaped me as both a parent and an artist. I also talk about the struggles I face as a creative, like the inner critic that often challenges me, and the joys that come with balancing art and motherhood. Join me as I share the story behind this podcast and the moments that inspired me to step into this new creative space.

In today's episode, I share the joyful yet challenging experience of doing origami with my three-year-old son. While waiting for our belongings to arrive from Munich, we bonded over folding delicate paper vehicles. This experience sparked not only joy but also valuable lessons about patience and the importance of pushing through artistic challenges. As I navigated the frustrations of origami, I reflected on how similar challenges appear in my artistic journey. Tune in to explore how persistence, balance, and enjoyment shape our creativity.

In the latest episode of Art, Parenthood and Beyond, I dive deep into the delicate balance of navigating life’s changes as both an artist and a parent. My recent move from Munich to Washington has opened my eyes to the emotional complexities we face when switching between our creative and administrative selves. I discuss practical strategies that have helped me ease these transitions, allowing my creativity to flourish even amidst the chaos of daily life.

In this episode of Art, Parenthood, and Beyond, I reflect on how my childhood fears shaped the way I parented my son and how painting helped me uncover these emotions. Through a specific artwork titled Womb, I realized my son is more capable than I initially believed, and this journey taught me the balance between protecting him and giving him the space to grow.

I also explore how our art can reflect deep emotions we may not even be aware of. Tune in for insights on both parenting and the creative process!

In this episode of Art, Parenthood and Beyond, I dive into the challenges of balancing motherhood with my personal creativity. I share a personal story that highlights the guilt I often feel when pursuing my artistic passions. Drawing on research, I reveal how taking time for my creative outlets is essential not only for my well-being but also for my family’s happiness. Join me as I explore how to embrace my creativity without guilt and become a more fulfilled parent.

In this episode of Art, Parenthood and Beyond, I reflect on the surreal experience of early parenthood, from sleep-deprived nights to the mesmerizing gaze of my newborn. Through a mix of humor and heartfelt stories, I share how my son’s wide-eyed wonder not only deepened our bond but also inspired my artistry in ways I never expected.

In Episode 4 of Art, Parenthood and Beyond, I share a surprising moment when my son showed unexpected empathy and how it deepened our bond and inspired my art. I also explore how parenthood and creativity influence each other, inviting you to reflect on your own experiences.

In this episode, How Can I Protect You? Exploring Parenthood's Challenging Feelings, I reflect on the bittersweet emotions of parenthood and how creative expression helps me navigate them. Join me as I explore how challenges deepen our appreciation for joy, and ask yourself: How do the struggles in your life help you see its joyful moments?